我最近失去了「性」致，或者應該說「減欲」成功，現在的性欲跟一兩年前比起來大概只有百分之七十五。我感到解放，但同時也覺得「小鳥」死了。但我並不擔心，因為我敢說自己目前的性欲還是比一般男性強。

　　有時候我會有種困惑、若有所失的感覺，覺得腦袋中似乎有塊空缺，是曾經裝滿色情想像的那部份。而現在我感覺自己好像頂著一顆巨大空洞的球而不知如何處理。

　　現在，我每分每秒、每一天的心智/主觀感受，都跟以前不一樣了。

　　以前，我的頭腦好像雜亂無章的團塊。過去的資訊或從書上看來的理論、想法從四面八方匯集，纏繞扭成一團。從旁觀者的角度遠遠看去，好像一團靜止不動，冥頑不靈的結。

　　現在我的意識更接近波動，而非粒子。各種資訊隨意散落、漂浮在各處，像在空間的波浪上起伏，等著被喚起或瓦解，而在那之前，只是一種可能性。這種意識感覺好像Instagram照片或者網路本身，而不像BBC出版的厚重書籍。

　　我不再做夢，在社交場合更沉默寡言。更重要的是，我覺得自己更健康，更年輕，更平和，充滿祥和喜悅。

　　我想說的是透過冥想、適當飲食和運動，我們可以大幅改變且轉化意識及生活中各種經驗。我很好奇一年後的自己，外表和心理上會有何改變。

I've lost (successfully reduced) my sex drive...by 75 percent compared to a year or two ago. I feel liberated, but at the same time I feel like my dog just died. But I'm not worried because I'm willing to bet that my current sex drive is still higher than the average male. 

I feel a little lost and confused sometimes because there is a void in my mind that used to be filled with pornographic imaginations, and I feel like I'm carrying around a huge empty sphere on my head that I don't know what to do with.

In fact, my day to day, moment to moment state of mind/subjective feels is very different now.

My mind was shaped like a jumbled up bundle of mess that's twisted and intertwined in all directions and is composed of information about the past or theories and ideas i read from books. If you look at it from far away, it looks like a static, unmoving, stubborn dot.

Now my consciousness is more like waves rather than a particle, with information freely scattered and floating through out and surfing on empty spaces waiting to be 'clicked' or collapsed... But until then it remains a mere potentiality. It feels more like Instagram photos and the Internet itself rather than a big fat book shaped like a BBC. 

I no longer dream, and have less to say, especially in social situations. 

Most importantly, I feel healthy and younger, more peace,bliss and joy. 

What I want to say is that through meditation, proper diet, exercise, one can drastically alter and transform his consciousness and all experiences in life.

I wonder how I would look at feel a year from now.