當你戀愛時，你愛上的並不是那個人本身，而是「戀愛」這個概念，或是對那人的某些片段回憶。

化約來看，這意味著你只是愛上了自己，因為是你的神經元生成了這些概念 / 理型。這就是為什麼「愛」總是以自我為中心。

這同樣適用於手淫：

有時在過程中突然想起這事實，會讓我瞬間喪失「性」致。我突然想起自己僅是陷入了自己的想像…我只是在對億萬個電子信號和神經傳導物質打手槍。

撩起我慾望的，並不是某個女孩，而是我對她的心理表徵，是我自己意識所生成的概念，這讓自慰成了一件完全自溺、自我指涉的舉動。

甚至可說，當你自慰時，意識把自己分成兩半，一半是心理A片導演，而另一半同時扮演觀眾。

You fall in love not with the person him/her self, but with the idea of love (or the fragmentation of certain memories of that person). 

Reductively, this means that you are merely falling in love with yourself, because it is YOUR neurons that are generating these ideas/ideals. This is why all love is self-centered.

THE SAME DEAL APPLIES TO MASTURBATION:

Sometimes I lose my erection in the middle of a session because all of a sudden I am reminded the fact that I am merely getting off to my own imagination…that I am fapping to billions of electrical signals and neural transmitters.

IT IS NOT A GIRL THAT I AM GETTING TURNED ON BY, BUT MY OWN MENTAL REPRESENTATION OF THAT PERSON AS AN IDEA THAT IS GENERATED BY MY OWN CONSCIOUSNESS…WHICH MAKES MASTURBATION COMPLETELY SELF-ABSORBING and SELF-REFERENTIAL.

YOU COULD EVEN SAY THAT CONSCIOUSNESS SPLITS ITSELF IN HALF WHENEVER YOU MASTURBATE, WITH ONE HALF OF IT ACTING AS THE DIRECTOR OF THE MENTAL PORNOGRAPHY WHILE THE OTHER HALF OF YOUR CONSCIOUSNESS WATCHES THE FILM SIMULTANEOUSLY.