"- What were you so sad about?"

"- Life."

「是什麼讓你這麼悲傷？」

「生命。」

                     *still from the movie, Closer, one of my favorite of all time.

                     *劇照取自《偷情》－我始終最愛的電影之一

"悲傷"非常性感。

我喜歡受傷的女孩，就像喜歡吃剩菜。支離破碎的女孩最吸引我。因為這讓自我(ego)加強，驅使我去把碎片像拼圖一樣拼合。沒人會買已經拼好的拼圖，對吧？每當一個女孩對我訴說她的悲傷，甚至與我做愛時還想著前男友，這些都能讓我興奮莫名硬起來。

跟隨時都很開心的人交往就沒意思了，因為無事可做。

有個大家心照不宣的小秘密：表現出悲傷，情緒化，神經質的樣子，比較容易把人拐上床。情侶喜歡分享傷感，坦承自己的痛苦能讓感情更緊密，更加信任彼此。

人們喜歡聽別人寂寞悲慘的故事，讓自己覺得比較好過。而且這是英雄救美的好機會，修復悲傷的她，最終是為了滿足意欲膨脹的自我。

另外幾乎屢試不爽的，剛被甩或分手分得很慘烈的女孩，通常都比較好上。絕望，或者報復的慾望，使她們放棄矜持。可以說心被刺穿而流淚時，陰戶也一樣。

我有個幻想：徒步遊走世界，探訪各家醫院的臨終病人，跟所有病人在臨終病床上做愛，他們的家人 、醫生、護士…所有人都在旁邊看著，鼓掌歡呼。因為當眾人束手無策時，我拯救了大家。

我能想見世上一定有人會看著那些做化療，沒有頭髮，繃帶纏繞，或滿身腫瘤的女孩照片打手槍。他們一定也覺得哀傷與悲慘無比性感吧。

"- What were you so sad about?"

"- Life."

*still from the movie, Closer, one of my favorite of all time.

Sadness is sexy.

I like damaged girls the way I like eating leftovers. I’m attracted to girls who are in pieces. It boosts my ego to glue them back like a piece of puzzle. Think about it, but nobody ever buys puzzles that have all the pieces already in place. It gives me a hard on when a girl confesses to me how sad she is, and how she still fantasizes about her ex when we have sex.

There’s no point in having a relationship with someone who is cheerful all the time because you would have nothing to do.

It’s a well-kept secret : Being sad and emo can get you laid. Couples like to share their sadness together, it’s what glues relationships and trust together: the confession of suffering.

People like hearing how lonely and miserable the other person is. It makes them feel better about themselves and it gives them a chance to be the hero and fix her up for the ultimate ego-booster.

Another thing I find that’s almost always true is how girls who just got dumped by their boyfriends and are in a bad breakups always give it up more easily. It’s the desperation that makes them easy…but sometimes it is also the urge for revenge. You can say that when the heart breaks and leaks, so does the vagina.

It is my fantasy to walk across the globe on my foot, visiting terminally ill patients in every hospital and making love to them all at once on their death beds while their family members, doctors, nurses and all the people who can do nothing to save them watch on, clap and cheer as I make them whole.

I can imagine somebody out there fapping to pictures of girls who are undergoing chemo and have no hair or are covered in bandages or tumors. There must be others who sadness and miseries in those images extremely sexy.

*still from the movie, Closer, one of my favorite of all time.